Skip to main content

I Feel I’m Not Normal

I don’t really know how to deal with myself, in general, I feel likeI could be going crazy.

What does it mean when I feel like i’m going crazy or that there is something is wrong with me, I take several type of disorder test and they all confirm there is something wrong with me but I don’t know how to handle it. For example, I can’t handle the thoughts I think some can be violent and some really nice, sometimes I feel like I can’t believe these thoughts our from my mind I just feel like a different person. I also have major mood swings like sometimes during class I’ll be very happy and eccentric and in just a matter of seconds I’ll go emotionless, I also can’t trust my friends that much I feel like they can just betray me any moment even if I’ve known them for years. Also, sometimes I’ll be on guard for no reason so I would feel like someone could just jump at me for no all. I used to be depressed but not any more yet I feel depressed at certain times. My anxiety levels have also risen a lot, I also have a hard time talking to people because I fear they will think bad of me. Sometimes I don’t care when people insult me and get amused my major accidents and agree with evil people. For example, I remember learning about 9/11 I thought it was so cool how the terrorist just went flying into the buildings I kind of found it amusing. And when learning about Hitler I thought he was pretty cool even though he did such terrible things I found him cool. I just feel like the way my mind thinks is kind of crazy or dangerous I even plan out details if friends betray me and imagine so many strategies to do so many bad things. As of right now I feel like I can be totally evil or crazy, how do I handle this. (From Canada)

It must be a terrible burden to have these horrible thoughts that you know are not okay, while at the same time not being able to manage them. I appreciate your bravery in talking about this here and will encourage you to set up with an appointment with a psychiatrist or clinical psychologist. You need an evaluation to get to the bottom of this.

The rapid mood swings, aggressive ideation, inappropriate reaction to accidents, trauma, and violence seem like on-going intrusive thoughts. There can be a variety of reasons for this and an evaluation by a professional who understands these symptoms is necessary. Getting someone to help you identify the cause of these intrusive thoughts and inappropriate feelings is very important. You’ve taken the first step here to ask the question. The next step is to find someone locally who can help you sort this through and come up with a plan to help you deal with it all.

Wishing you patience and peace,
Dr. Dan
Proof Positive Blog @ PsychCentral

from Ask the Therapist

Become a patron of The Carlisle Wellness Network. Show everyone that you think this service is worth at least a buck. Go to; and pledge one dollar per month and help improve the resources it takes to gather the articles you see here as well as create fresh content including interviews an podcasts. We only need one dollar per month from all of our patrons to give The Carlisle Wellness Network a bright furture in the health and wellness social media ecosystem.


Popular posts from this blog

Working Remotely Is Not Necessarily Stress-Free

Many believe that working from home or remotely can foster freedom and stress-free job satisfaction, and that everyone wants  more work autonomy. A new study from Baylor University in Waco, Texas, says “Not so fast.” In the study, researchers examined the impact of remote work on employee well-being. Their findings suggest that a variety of factors can undermine or accent the employee benefits of working off-site. Accordingly, researchers developed new strategies to help managers provide remote-work opportunities that are valuable to the employee and the company. “Any organization, regardless of the extent to which people work remotely, needs to consider well-being of their employees as they implement more flexible working practices,” the researchers wrote. The study appears in the European Journal of Work and Organizational Psychology . In the review, a total of 403 working adults were surveyed for the two studies that made up the research, said lead author Sara Perry, Ph.D. Re

Today’s Popular Music is More Angry, Sad and Less Joyful

Today’s popular music is noticeably different from the popular songs of the 1960s and 1970s. Now a new study reveals that it’s not just the music itself that is different; today’s music consumers seem to prefer songs that express darker emotions in both lyric and tone. The findings, published in the Journal of Popular Music Studies , show that the expression of anger and sadness in popular music has increased gradually over time, while the expression of joy has declined. Using quantitative analytics, researchers from Lawrence Technological University in Michigan studied changes in popular music lyrics throughout the last seven decades, from the 1950s to 2016. Data scientists Kathleen Napier and Dr. Lior Shamir analyzed the lyrics of more than 6,000 songs found on the Billboard Hot 100, a list of the most popular songs of each year. In the past, songs were ranked primarily by record sales, radio broadcasting, and jukebox plays, but in more recent years, popularity is based on several

I Pretend that Fictional Characters Are Real & Talk to Myself as Them

I’ve always loved to play pretend. But now that I’m a teenager, instead of outgrowing it, it’s gotten worse. Now I’ve gotten to the point where it’s an obsession, and I spend more time with my imaginary friends then with real people. I pretend that my favorite characters from movies and TV shows are real, and I talk to myself, both as myself and the character. I have long discussions with myself. I also pretend that they are with me everywhere I go–to the supermarket, to my cousin’s house. I pretend that they’re with me, no matter what I do. Lately, I’ve also been doing something that’s hard to explain: I pretend to be two people (usually myself and my mother, or a cousin, or a made-up person) and have a pretend to have a conversation with them. I pretend that the fiction character is watching me and my mother/cousin/other. Usually, those scenarios involve either a verbal fight, or joking. I’m really concerned because I know this is abnormal and I’m not living a normal life. I’m worri